... and waiting :s

One of my goals this year was to write for a major paper/magazine (by major I mean one that isn't thrown in the nearest trash can like the school paper.) And I am so close to accomplishing it.

About two weeks ago I emailed my religion story and about 200 words on why I should be on the AZteen magazine writing staff, and she emailed me back! She told me that I needed to write a try out story first, and that we would go from there.

She gave me three options to write about, and I chose sibling rivalry. Three days before deadline,Sunday, I had all of my interviews, and could not write anything. I sat at my computer for an HOUR and had nothing! I didn't even know how to start writing this story, where I wanted to go with it, how sibling rivalry affected people, what could make this article interesting, nada.

So Monday I had a little more to go on and wrote it, the only problem was that it was a total fluff peice. I focused on healthy relationships instead of comparing the good and the bad, and from my dads constant pushing I got the story to my editor 4 hours before deadline. Finally.

I sent it to her Tuesday, It's Saturday and I am dying!

She sent me another email yesterday, and I was freaking out. Would I make it, or was my writing good enough? Am I ready to write for a state-wide magazine?

And the email says: Thanks for sending this. My computer is in the shop and I have to do this email from someone else's, So I can't look over it now. I'll get back to you asap.

I give her props for sending me the email, but really? I am checking my email every 15 minutes...

I can't handle this!

Craziness :)

I have not updated in forever! Sorry, but things have been insane, so here's an overview of what you missed:

• I went to the world's LARGEST indoor treehouse with my friend Paige, we went with her aunt and cousins, so it wasn't too childish... But at one point we were sitting in a space ship, singing high school musical and this little girl sees us, looks at us and says, "Could you stop singing, you can't sing that, you're too old."! As if you could EVER be too old for jungle jims and HSM soundtracks...
• I got over Kyle, he is still hung up on his ex-girlfriend and is 'waiting' for her, even though she told him she liked her ex-boyfriend. But she still calls him and texts him and leads him on... So he can deal with his own issues for now, because he is set on her, and it will take a while for that status to change
• Ian on the other hand is fantastic :) We have spent the last few days working on posters not only during class, but during lunch, and into the next period. We always laugh and make new inside jokes, are always together at parties or school events. he doesn't have a crazy ex, he has a normal family, good hair, smart, smells good, and can make me laugh like no other. So I'm really hoping we go somewhere, if not date, then at least stay really close friends
• I am headed to Utah in 5 days and absolutely can't wait! I get to see my cousins, aunts, ski, go to the outlet stores in park city, drive there, and get to meet all of my cousin's friends, and learn to make pesto! Ahh, it's going to be a fantastic trip, I cannot wait to leave AZ and get to the snow
  
• My Algebra and Biology classes aren't doing well at all, I do my reviews, but still got really bad grades, I think it's time for a tutor, because I cannot fail 1 class, let alone two in the same semester, school is torture
• Supernatural. Jared Padelecki and Jensen Ackles are insanely gorgeous, if I had a wish it would be to spend a day with Jared... I am an official fan of Supernatural and would recommend it to ANYONE who loves tv that scares you, has amazing, and gorgeous actors, and makes you laugh, believe me, you won't be dissappointed
  
• The Great and Terrible Books are a series that I have been reading lately, and they too are fantastic. The books are written by a LDS author and former military leader. The first book takes place in the premortal existence before Adam and Eve were in the garden, when the souls in heaven had to choose between Satan and Heavenly Father's plan. The next five take place on Earth and what happens in the last days. The most important thing that I have recieved from these books are the reliazation that Satan is with us everyday. He whispers thoughts into our head just like the Holy Ghost. He seeks only to make us as bitter and hate fiiled as he is, it is our choice whether to listen to him or the Holy Ghost. I know that I was saved for these last days. I know that I have a testimony and I challenge you to figure out what you believe, because living in this world is dangerous. Crime, poverty, death, war, disease, currupt leaders, the constitution is crumbling. We can either be ignorant or realize how soon that last days will be upon us. Maybe it will happen within the next few years, or maybe not for the next 50, either way I want to be prepared, not only physically with food storage and protection, but spiritually ready to help him to prepare this earth for his coming. When He comes I want to be able to say that I have held up my end of the promise, and that it is time that he held up his. I want to be sealed and with a family, I want this more than anything else.
  

Single Awareness Day :o

It's Valentines Day.

And it really sucks to be alone on Valentines Day. 

But for an update, I have officially gotten over good hair guy, because him and his girlfriend are practically perfect together, and I have moved on... To two guys...

The first one will be named... Ian. I like Ian, and I have off and on for about four months. But I have no idea if he likes me. We have a class together, and are always together. He is hilarious, and every time we're together we both laugh until we cry! But he's not a touchy-feely kind of guy. We never talk about anything substantial, but we text each other, facebook, hang out, and I'm comfortable around him.

 But we don't have the same friends and have never gone anywhere that wasn't for school together. I don't know how to get him to notice me without going up to him and shouting to him how much I care. But I don't know if I even do care about him as much as I think I do because I don't know him that well... 

And then there's...Kyle. He and I have have been friends since freshman year, and he is amazing. He has had 2 girlfriends and both have broken up with him. His problem is that he is in for a serious relationship and says 'I love you' within the first few months, and his girlfriends have been the type that don't believe in teenage love... go figure.

 He is an amazing boyfriend. He is sweet and caring and isn't afraid to get hurt. He tells how he feels, even if they didn't feel the same way about him. The only problem is he is very open, he tells everyone how he feels, all of the time. When he is in a fight with his girlfriend, he asks for everyone's opinions. I could see myself dating him, and I see that we are compatible, I want someone who is serious and who would be serious enough to start a relationship with and not a fling. I'm not a fling kinda girl. But he is still hung up on his ex and we hang out, but he always talks to me about her and how he misses her, and how he can change for her. It drives me crazy.

And I don't know how to go from being the friend to the girlfriend with either one of them 

Nerd test :)

"Soulmate"-Natasha Beddingfeild :)

So I saw this on another blog, and loved it, she is funnier than me, but I just got new songs from itunes(I know I actually use itunes instead of LimeWire, craziness) and had to do it! 

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Have Fun. (Well, if you insist...)

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY....?

"Gives You Hell" -All American Rejects (Pretty much sums up my day)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

"The Other Side"-Ben Jelen (I guess I can be a little off sometimes)

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?

"I kissed a Girl"-Katy Perry (Ok, so I have to comply with the shuffle rule, but I promise, I kiss guys, not 

girls, and as you know I am obsessed with hair...)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

"Mr. Philosopher"-Ben Jelen (I did use a Ghandi quote today!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

"Mannequin"- Katy Perry 

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

"Crash into me"-Dave Matthews Band

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

"Miserable at best"-Mayday Parade (I hope I'm not that depressing)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

"Poker Face"-Lady Gaga (ok, I don't lie that much...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

"Candle(sick and tired)"-The White Tie Affair (I am exhausted...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FIRST KISS?

Well, excluded the fact that I have yet to have my first kiss I guess it would be "Goodbye my lover"-James 

Blunt!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

"Lost!"-Coldplay 

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

"Thinking of you"-Katy Perry 

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

"You found me" -The Fray (My favorite band, btw!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

"Womanizer" -Britney Spears (classic)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

"White horse"-Taylor Swift ( well, this song's actually really depressing, so... maybe not?)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

"Just dance"-Lady GaGa (I really don't want my funeral to be all dark and depressing, I want it to be a 

celebration of my life, and the memories I made, so I hope they do)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

"If you seek Amy" Britney Spears (Well just so you know, I don't do that in my spare time, if you still don't get it, say it fast, you'll get it soon enough)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

"Super Massive Black Hole" -Muse (could you imagine eternity in a black hole, I would die)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

"What have we done"-Ben Jelen (that one night... at band camp ;)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

"Burnin up"-Jo Bros (translation: watch Camp Rock and still be amazed at how he is one of the few guys who can rock white skinny jeans)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

"Thats what you get"-Paramore (actually I think they should all get trust funds for putting up with me!)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

"Soulmate"-Natasha Beddingfeild (One of the most amazing songs, fantastic lyrics)

The Superbowl XLIII >:|

Let me start out by saying that I am not a sports fan. I don't watch a sport unless it's baseball and I'm with my dad. I occasionally go to school games and talk to my friends, but never just for fun. But yesterday was intense. I went to my friend Paige's cousin's house. They were all either in college or just out of it, and were all drunk by 3 quarter. They were cussing, yelling at the t.v. All of them were Cardinal fans, and the 4 quarter was insane! 

When Roethlisberger made that freaking 100 yard run without being intercepted, and how his feet barely missed the line when he caught the ball in the air... Ahh, I was so pissed, we had it too, when Fitzgerald made that touchdown with only 3 minutes on the clock we were so close to winning it, so close but so far away. And then they didn't even review the play made 15 seconds before the end of the 4 quarter! The refs calling the Cardinals out on rough housing when the Steelers were beating up the Cardinals... 

It was a intense game, the Cardinals put up a fight though, I still wore their colors today. I guess we'll see them there in another, what? 60 years?

Unity Games/P.U.S.D. playoffs :D

So yesterday was a bad day, this morning I was told I can't go to New York for Newspaper because there's no room and I'm starting to get a cold. But...

WE PLACED FIRST IN THE UNITY GAMES!!

Haha, well you're probably wondering what unity games are. They happen every four years between all of the student councils in the district. I go to SMHS, our rival is CeHS, and today we beat them! See, this is a long rivalry, CeHS wins everything, goes to state in all sports, school spirit, the whole shibang. But because of our amazingness, we won! Ugh, you have no idea how intense he was. To him this was war, he was set on beating centennial and bringing home a trophy, when we won, he freaked. We were shouting and yelling, chanting, it was a huge victory.

We got to the school around 9 and were all in the bleachers. We started off the day with an intense game of signs, got 2nd. Then the sponge game (you get in a line and pass your sponge back trying to move as much water as you can, as fast as you can to fill our bucket) we got 2nd, the orange game, one of the most awkward games ever (you have to pass an orange down the line, only using your chin, good times) where we got 2nd, tug of war, we got 2nd and the talent show,  where we again got 2nd! You know what they say! First the worst, second the best!! 

Second obviously dominates  :D

Ooo, and the person I was babysitting for cancelled, so I get to go to the J.V. basketball game, yay Morgan!! 

So I guess it wasn't too bad a day today...

:*|

Today I needed a hug. 

Today I was ditched. Last night I made plans to go to lunch and work on a group project. As a group. This morning I was told that 2 of the 5 people of the group had stay at school. I was one of the ones to stay at school. Then the other girl went to lunch anyway. I was left at school, the only one in my group. We had an hour to practice our dance in class. I spent an hour watching everyone else. I was at school, so I  couldn't cry. I was almost, almost too angry to cry. 

Today I needed a hug. But no one was there. I was alone, and I was lonely, and I hated it.

LIFE... and it's small wonders :)

Today I went into the cafeteria during 3rd hour to sit with some other council members. I went with Mallory, Claire and Ashley to the stage where Mallory started playing the piano, and it was amazing. She writes her own songs and sings them. It was powerful. Her fingers were everywhere on the keys. I couldn't believe she was 17. Her sister, Claire, started crying at one point. Later I learned that the song Mallory was playing, was written for her. 

Mallory wrote every part of the songs she played, wrote every word and you could tell from the way she played that it was from her heart. She meant every word. And that's how it should be for everything we do. Everything we do should have a purpose. If I could make one person feel so overwhelmed with emotion that they cry or laugh when they read my writing, then I will have accomplished something great. The small things in life tend to be the most important, like when someone compliments me on a bad day, listens when I have a problem, or talks on the phone for hours, makes me laugh so hard I cry, or makes me feel like they really care. 

Those are the memories I will cherish forever.

I am proud to say that I am an OBAMANATION! =)

Today in our classes, well, first and second hour, we got to see our 44th president, Barack Obama be inaugurated.

History was made.

I kind of feel like those people who say they were there when Kennedy was shot? (My Grandma was giving birth, which totally doesn't sound as cool as 10th grade Newspaper class, but whatever 

:-p) 

So, living in AZ, with a major Republican dad and LDS friends, I am definitely the ugly duckling of politics. (hence the name my seminary class gave me: Obamanation.) That's what I love most about politics. On one end you can find me who believes passionately that gays should have the right to marry, but then my friend Marcy, who strongly  believes that gays should not go near an alter. We have gotten into ALOT of debates. But being that most of my family and friends are republican I have to know a lot more about the issue, I had to be open to both sides and understood why Marcy feels the way that she does. I love the freedom to choose what you believe, and no one can take that away, they can send you as many articles as your email can handle, but only you decide whether you are Democrat, Republican or an Independent. 

Yes, having a black president will be a change, but being so close-minded to the point that you refuse to even watch one of the most powerful men in the world speak, or call a homosexual a fag is just being ignorant and onery. Maybe in four years I will be saying that I was wrong and that he made a worse president than George Bush. 

But maybe, just maybe I'll be proud to have stuck to my beliefs and supported one of the greatest men in history.

Student Council :!

So, I'm on my school's Student Council. And since our football team is one of the worst in the state, Student Council is kind of a big deal. We have a lot of responsibility, but being that there are only 6-10 officers a class, Student Council is selective, you have to give a speech and campaign, it's crazy, but last year, I decided to run! And won. And I love it, you're involved and you know, and plan, everything that's going on.

I am one of six members of my class, and the other 5 are close to my perception of perfect. It can be hard to be around them! I am the kind of person who hates waking up to do my hair, so most of the time my hair is in a ponytail, but everyday the 4 girls come with their pair either in spiral curls, or perfectly straight hair, plus they can pull off any outfit, and it doesn't hurt that they're healthy skinny, not anorexic. My self esteem takes a hit some days.

So my dilemma is what to do about Winter Formal. They kind of invited me, but it's hard to tell if they did it because I was there, or because they really wanted me to go. I don't want to ask if I can go and them say, well yea, and them talk about me behind my back, but I also don't want them to think I don't want to go, because I really do. SO after all day of mulling it over I have decided to just pull one of them aside and ask, because if there's only one of them, then they can't give each other sideways looks, but also she can tell me what she thinks, and not have to say what the others think. Who knows how it will go, but I'll keep you posted!

 I hate high school politics. 

Hoopcoming/Good Hair/neighbors/sisters :/

Well, it's been pretty hectic lately, I'm on my high school's student council, and our project is Hoopcoming, which is basically homecoming for basketball. We have dress up days, a winter dance, lunchtime activities, shirts, the assembly, all of which we get to organize... talk about pressure!  And then you get to add the 6 hours it took yesterday morning to draw, color, cut and tape posters on campus, not to count all of the snowflakes we made! 

Decorating the halls is definitely the best/worst part of being on council, you make so many memories, and it's a ton of fun, but it's exhausting, tedious, and you know that by the end of the day on Monday everything will be torn down (if it makes it through the weekend). But, its the thought that counts right??  

And, for an update on Good Hair guy, the first day back I found out that he is dating one of my student council friends... So that basically ruined my first day back, and the worst part is that I can't even hate the girl he's dating, because she's so awesome, high school can be so cruel sometimes... but he does still have an amazing smile! 

I did have a great night at my friend Marcy's party Saturday night, we played Do You Love Your Neighbor, Mafia, and just talked, and I figured out that I have amazing neighbors, we already have enchilada Monday planned!! Haha, overall it was a good night!

 Last, but not least, something happened this weekend that I didn't think ever would, I am starting to be friends with my sister. Ok, that probably sounded horrible, but you have to know our relationship first. She is a year younger and we fight alike crazy, and rarely agree on anything. But being in the same high school has definitely brought us closer together. We hang out with the same people. She can be conceited, rude, closeminded, brown nosing little freshman, but at the end of the night, she my little sister, and I love her. 

Happy 2009! =)

Ahh, it's 2009 and I am really excited to get back to school, friends, Student Council, NEWSPAPER, and good hair guy. 

I have a feeling that this is going to be a good year. 

So, this year I decided not to do New Year Resolutions. Partially because I can never follow through, though mainly because I am working to be more relaxed. I want my life to lead me wherever I am supposed to go. I need and want to focus more of my energy on school, writing and getting my Personal Progress medallion by the summer. It's getting down to two years before I head to A.S.U.! And if I get all A's my dad might get me a little smart car (I'm crossing my fingers!)

This past year I have seen too many people who are so caught up with their work, parties, how their how looks, and I've seen how their family and friends suffer from that. I want to make sure I cherish my life now, focus on now. Because when you put the Lord, and others first, then everything else either falls into place, or falls out of your life.